1 00:00:08,008 --> 00:00:10,469 Early this morning, we made contact with your parents. 2 00:00:12,555 --> 00:00:13,555 We'll travel them here 3 00:00:13,556 --> 00:00:14,640 as quickly as possible. 4 00:00:17,059 --> 00:00:20,603 And the quarantine order will be lifted soon, 5 00:00:20,604 --> 00:00:23,773 not just for you but for all the victims, 6 00:00:23,774 --> 00:00:27,402 at which point, you'll be free to see each other. 7 00:00:32,366 --> 00:00:34,784 Just to be clear, 8 00:00:34,785 --> 00:00:37,246 our primary goal is to conduct an investigation. 9 00:00:39,290 --> 00:00:41,541 There's a lot of haze surrounding your circumstances 10 00:00:41,542 --> 00:00:43,877 that we just want to clarify. 11 00:00:46,213 --> 00:00:49,591 And I cannot stress this enough, but... 12 00:00:49,592 --> 00:00:52,635 this is just a conversation. 13 00:00:52,636 --> 00:00:54,096 That's all. 14 00:00:55,848 --> 00:00:58,683 This is my colleague, Agent Young. 15 00:00:58,684 --> 00:01:00,769 He's gonna be running point on this. 16 00:01:00,770 --> 00:01:03,104 He's the investigator in charge. 17 00:01:03,105 --> 00:01:05,232 Brass tacks guy, if you will. 18 00:01:06,108 --> 00:01:09,736 But me, um... 19 00:01:09,737 --> 00:01:11,988 I'm here for you, Leah, 20 00:01:11,989 --> 00:01:14,199 to make sure you feel safe. 21 00:01:14,200 --> 00:01:15,450 As a trauma specialist, 22 00:01:15,451 --> 00:01:18,037 that is my sole and sacred duty. 23 00:01:18,871 --> 00:01:20,663 You thirsty? 24 00:01:20,664 --> 00:01:23,208 Would you like... 25 00:01:23,209 --> 00:01:24,501 would you like something to drink? 26 00:01:24,502 --> 00:01:26,462 Let's see. 27 00:01:27,713 --> 00:01:29,923 Didn't know what you'd like, 28 00:01:29,924 --> 00:01:34,094 so we got a bit of a grab bag here. 29 00:01:36,180 --> 00:01:38,431 Is anything calling your name? 30 00:01:51,070 --> 00:01:53,655 I used to drink these all the time. 31 00:01:53,656 --> 00:01:55,240 Good, great. That's great. 32 00:01:55,241 --> 00:01:57,033 Don't hesitate to ask for seconds... 33 00:01:57,034 --> 00:02:01,287 or thirds or... anything at all, really. 34 00:02:01,288 --> 00:02:02,705 After all you've been through, we want you 35 00:02:02,706 --> 00:02:05,124 to feel as comfortable as possible. 36 00:02:05,125 --> 00:02:07,126 What have the others told you? 37 00:02:07,127 --> 00:02:08,461 Nothing, as of yet. 38 00:02:08,462 --> 00:02:10,672 You're the first one we've brought in. 39 00:02:10,673 --> 00:02:14,009 So then you don't know what I've been through, do you? 40 00:02:16,011 --> 00:02:17,804 You're just assuming trauma. 41 00:02:17,805 --> 00:02:19,722 You're just assuming it was a living hell. 42 00:02:19,723 --> 00:02:22,767 Okay, Leah, no one is assuming anything. 43 00:02:22,768 --> 00:02:24,311 Sorry, look, I don't... 44 00:02:26,647 --> 00:02:28,648 I don't mean to say that what happened 45 00:02:28,649 --> 00:02:31,234 wasn't traumatic. 46 00:02:31,235 --> 00:02:33,445 Obviously, it was traumatic. 47 00:02:34,613 --> 00:02:36,364 To end up where we did, 48 00:02:36,365 --> 00:02:38,658 in the middle of nowhere, 49 00:02:38,659 --> 00:02:41,411 completely cut off from the lives we left behind. 50 00:02:43,831 --> 00:02:46,709 That brings us to the real question, doesn't it? 51 00:02:50,838 --> 00:02:53,464 What was so fucking great 52 00:02:53,465 --> 00:02:56,050 about the lives we left behind? 53 00:02:57,761 --> 00:03:00,263 Because here's what I remember of all that. 54 00:03:02,516 --> 00:03:06,519 I remember not being enough. 55 00:03:06,520 --> 00:03:09,522 I remember wanting to be more. 56 00:03:11,734 --> 00:03:14,110 I remember the dark moods, 57 00:03:14,111 --> 00:03:17,697 the violent moods, 58 00:03:17,698 --> 00:03:20,576 moods that nobody had any patience for. 59 00:03:22,202 --> 00:03:24,913 And then there was the brutal social scene, 60 00:03:24,914 --> 00:03:26,789 which some girls could just glide through 61 00:03:26,790 --> 00:03:29,500 like they belonged everywhere. 62 00:03:32,212 --> 00:03:35,298 And there you were, just trying to belong somewhere. 63 00:03:41,639 --> 00:03:44,766 I remember the ridiculous expectations 64 00:03:44,767 --> 00:03:46,392 they had for us. 65 00:03:46,393 --> 00:03:48,102 Like... 66 00:03:48,103 --> 00:03:52,398 we were supposed to be these golden gods 24-7. 67 00:04:06,497 --> 00:04:08,706 Locked. Locked. 68 00:04:08,707 --> 00:04:11,584 Fuck. Fuck. 69 00:04:16,882 --> 00:04:20,301 I remember the responsibilities, 70 00:04:20,302 --> 00:04:24,514 heavy burdens meant for adults forced on us before our time. 71 00:04:28,352 --> 00:04:30,937 Responsibilities that made you think... 72 00:04:30,938 --> 00:04:33,564 "Yeah, this is definitely 73 00:04:33,565 --> 00:04:36,818 fucking with my healthy development right now." 74 00:04:44,535 --> 00:04:45,994 And don't get me started 75 00:04:45,995 --> 00:04:48,037 on the impossible problem of sex. 76 00:04:52,042 --> 00:04:53,835 If you were terrified of it, 77 00:04:53,836 --> 00:04:56,295 which you had every reason to be, 78 00:04:56,296 --> 00:04:58,673 you'd be deemed a frigid chastity bitch. 79 00:05:02,803 --> 00:05:04,679 But if you were somehow unafraid, 80 00:05:04,680 --> 00:05:08,182 like if it was just naturally your thing... 81 00:05:11,353 --> 00:05:13,021 Then God help you. 82 00:05:15,232 --> 00:05:19,235 The world is a dangerous place for a sexually evolved girl. 83 00:05:23,657 --> 00:05:26,659 And on top of all that, there was this new feeling, 84 00:05:26,660 --> 00:05:29,537 this sick, ugly feeling... 85 00:05:29,538 --> 00:05:32,874 ...of wanting to love and to be loved back... 86 00:05:35,461 --> 00:05:37,712 ...which never ends well. 87 00:05:46,972 --> 00:05:50,517 So if we're talking about what happened out there... 88 00:05:52,686 --> 00:05:55,064 ...then yeah, there was trauma. 89 00:05:56,899 --> 00:06:00,943 But being a teenage girl in normal-ass America... 90 00:06:03,947 --> 00:06:05,907 ...that was the real living hell. 91 00:06:14,750 --> 00:06:16,460 Hello? 92 00:06:21,173 --> 00:06:23,383 Anybody! 93 00:07:07,344 --> 00:07:09,178 Tell us what you know 94 00:07:09,179 --> 00:07:12,932 about the Dawn of Eve. 95 00:07:12,933 --> 00:07:14,600 Dear, I mean, you just would not believe... 96 00:07:14,601 --> 00:07:16,769 The retreat was my mother's idea. 97 00:07:16,770 --> 00:07:21,232 She thought it would be, like, therapeutic. 98 00:07:21,233 --> 00:07:23,818 Did you have a chance to look through the activities? 99 00:07:23,819 --> 00:07:27,530 But maybe they were just scared of me. 100 00:07:27,531 --> 00:07:30,825 My dad had started looking at me like I was radioactive. 101 00:07:30,826 --> 00:07:33,578 Private plane, honey, direct to the Big Island. 102 00:07:33,579 --> 00:07:35,413 If that doesn't boost you out of your funk, 103 00:07:35,414 --> 00:07:37,039 I don't know what will. 104 00:07:37,040 --> 00:07:40,042 Please don't refer to my emotional devastation 105 00:07:40,043 --> 00:07:41,170 as a "funk." 106 00:07:43,213 --> 00:07:46,632 Leah, I know you're recovering from some kind of breakup, 107 00:07:46,633 --> 00:07:49,177 and I know you're not wild about this trip, 108 00:07:49,178 --> 00:07:50,761 but your father and I, 109 00:07:50,762 --> 00:07:53,055 we're kind of at a loss for how we can help. 110 00:07:53,056 --> 00:07:55,600 We're really trying here, Leah. 111 00:08:11,950 --> 00:08:13,743 Hey! Hey. 112 00:08:13,744 --> 00:08:15,494 Hey. 113 00:08:15,495 --> 00:08:16,914 Are you all right? 114 00:08:19,124 --> 00:08:20,833 Hey. 115 00:08:20,834 --> 00:08:22,585 What are you saying? 116 00:08:25,589 --> 00:08:27,632 P!nk, is that your ringtone? 117 00:08:29,301 --> 00:08:31,093 Hey, hey, hey, stay... stay with me. 118 00:08:32,512 --> 00:08:34,096 Jeanette. 119 00:08:34,097 --> 00:08:37,767 That was her name, I found out later, 120 00:08:37,768 --> 00:08:40,853 and she was the only one who'd come alone. 121 00:08:40,854 --> 00:08:42,855 The rest of us came in pairs. 122 00:08:42,856 --> 00:08:45,441 There was Toni and Martha, 123 00:08:45,442 --> 00:08:47,485 best friends from Minnesota; 124 00:08:47,486 --> 00:08:51,781 the Texans, Dot and Shelby; 125 00:08:51,782 --> 00:08:53,115 there was Rachel from New York 126 00:08:53,116 --> 00:08:56,118 and her sister, Nora; 127 00:08:56,119 --> 00:08:59,622 and Fatin, of all people, from my school. 128 00:08:59,623 --> 00:09:03,668 But like I said, none of this sunk in until later. 129 00:09:03,669 --> 00:09:06,754 Not faces, not names, 130 00:09:06,755 --> 00:09:08,923 not the ridiculous welcome video. 131 00:09:08,924 --> 00:09:12,218 Right now, hundreds of girls just like yourselves 132 00:09:12,219 --> 00:09:14,178 aboard charters just like this one 133 00:09:14,179 --> 00:09:17,348 are en route to our retreat in Kona, Hawaii, 134 00:09:17,349 --> 00:09:19,558 for a long weekend of female-centric 135 00:09:19,559 --> 00:09:21,269 learning and growth. 136 00:09:21,270 --> 00:09:24,730 The Dawn of Eve literally waits for no man. 137 00:09:24,731 --> 00:09:27,692 I was somewhere else, 138 00:09:27,693 --> 00:09:32,071 trying to disappear into those pages, 139 00:09:32,072 --> 00:09:34,615 where it all began. 140 00:09:38,328 --> 00:09:41,414 Do you know there is a vegan drum circle on the South Lawn? 141 00:09:41,415 --> 00:09:42,999 I mean, seriously? 142 00:09:43,000 --> 00:09:45,710 Be a vegan, or be someone who does drum circles, 143 00:09:45,711 --> 00:09:48,129 not both. 144 00:09:48,130 --> 00:09:51,215 Everyone is just too fucking interesting around here. 145 00:09:51,216 --> 00:09:53,926 I've got, like, interesting fatigue. 146 00:09:53,927 --> 00:09:56,512 Is that why you hang out with me? 147 00:09:56,513 --> 00:10:00,099 I'm so bland, it gives you a chance to recharge? 148 00:10:00,100 --> 00:10:01,642 I get it. 149 00:10:01,643 --> 00:10:03,769 My hair is all one color. 150 00:10:03,770 --> 00:10:08,649 I'm a virgin that still drinks dairy milk. 151 00:10:08,650 --> 00:10:10,443 Shit, I really am boring. 152 00:10:10,444 --> 00:10:12,611 Actually, by being the most normcore person here, 153 00:10:12,612 --> 00:10:14,447 you've low-key turned the tables. 154 00:10:14,448 --> 00:10:17,616 You've become the freakiest freak of all. 155 00:10:17,617 --> 00:10:19,660 Well, either you or Fatin, 156 00:10:19,661 --> 00:10:22,955 the true basic bitch. 157 00:10:22,956 --> 00:10:25,082 Why does she even go here? 158 00:10:25,083 --> 00:10:26,334 You seriously don't know? 159 00:10:26,335 --> 00:10:28,711 Fatin is a cello virtuoso. 160 00:10:28,712 --> 00:10:30,922 She's, like, a shoo-in at Juilliard. 161 00:10:32,674 --> 00:10:35,009 You don't have to read that book, you know. 162 00:10:35,010 --> 00:10:37,928 Ms. Wolfe only assigned it 'cause Galanis used to go here. 163 00:10:37,929 --> 00:10:41,057 It's shameless alumni promotion. 164 00:10:41,058 --> 00:10:43,517 God, have you read chapter six yet? 165 00:10:43,518 --> 00:10:45,353 A 12-page description 166 00:10:45,354 --> 00:10:47,980 of the wallpaper in a waiting room. 167 00:10:47,981 --> 00:10:49,857 Yeah, but I... 168 00:10:49,858 --> 00:10:53,319 I think the waiting room was, like, a metaphor, though, 169 00:10:53,320 --> 00:10:55,072 for how stuck she felt. 170 00:10:57,199 --> 00:11:00,368 Tell him yourself. He's coming next week. 171 00:11:00,369 --> 00:11:03,788 Some kind of school-wide literary event. 172 00:11:12,130 --> 00:11:14,590 So in the interest of bringing us all together, 173 00:11:14,591 --> 00:11:16,634 I'd like to propose a little icebreaker. 174 00:11:16,635 --> 00:11:17,968 Ooh, like Never Have I Ever? 175 00:11:17,969 --> 00:11:19,470 That game's a little much. 176 00:11:19,471 --> 00:11:21,430 I know. So, here's how it works. 177 00:11:21,431 --> 00:11:23,516 One person says something they've never done, 178 00:11:23,517 --> 00:11:26,644 and if you have done it, you have to drink alcohol. 179 00:11:26,645 --> 00:11:29,021 That game's a little intense, 180 00:11:29,022 --> 00:11:30,856 like, for people who don't know each other real well, 181 00:11:30,857 --> 00:11:33,109 so how about we just pair off, 182 00:11:33,110 --> 00:11:35,319 powwow with your partner for a sec, and then afterwards, 183 00:11:35,320 --> 00:11:36,904 you can introduce her to the rest of us? 184 00:11:36,905 --> 00:11:38,656 - This white girl said "powwow." - So? 185 00:11:38,657 --> 00:11:40,491 So it's not her word. You should be triggered. 186 00:11:40,492 --> 00:11:42,326 Okay. I'm not, though. 187 00:11:42,327 --> 00:11:44,662 Why am I always fighting your battles for you? 188 00:11:44,663 --> 00:11:46,497 I don't know. Because you like fighting? 189 00:11:46,498 --> 00:11:48,165 Okay, shh. 190 00:11:48,166 --> 00:11:49,625 Guess I'll have to play matchmaker. 191 00:11:49,626 --> 00:11:51,795 You can come with me. 192 00:11:54,464 --> 00:11:56,841 Right about here, okay. 193 00:11:56,842 --> 00:11:59,636 And it looks like we'll need one little group of three. 194 00:12:01,138 --> 00:12:04,223 Or you can just sit this one out. 195 00:12:04,224 --> 00:12:06,767 All right. Shelby. And you are? 196 00:12:06,768 --> 00:12:08,519 - Martha. - Martha, it's a pleasure. 197 00:12:08,520 --> 00:12:10,104 Okay, so let me tell you a bit about me. 198 00:12:10,105 --> 00:12:11,647 Okay, I do real, right? 199 00:12:11,648 --> 00:12:14,859 I do family. I do Jesus. I do pageants. 200 00:12:14,860 --> 00:12:17,319 And I'm doing this conference to offset the pageants. 201 00:12:17,320 --> 00:12:19,655 Some colleges might see them as retrograde 202 00:12:19,656 --> 00:12:22,324 when it comes to female empowerment. 203 00:12:22,325 --> 00:12:24,703 Has anyone ever told you you have the most drop-dead gorgeous eyes? 204 00:12:28,415 --> 00:12:30,541 Hey, I've got a question about your shirt. 205 00:12:30,542 --> 00:12:32,793 I've got a few questions about your cargo pants. 206 00:12:32,794 --> 00:12:34,420 Yeah, well, I'm not a lesbian. 207 00:12:34,421 --> 00:12:36,464 Sorry to disappoint. I just like storage. 208 00:12:36,465 --> 00:12:39,467 But I see shirts like yours everywhere. 209 00:12:39,468 --> 00:12:42,679 Shirts that have, like, a lot of attitude. 210 00:12:43,513 --> 00:12:45,222 So what's your question, then? 211 00:12:45,223 --> 00:12:47,433 I guess just, why are they a thing? 212 00:12:47,434 --> 00:12:49,351 Um, because they're super cute and super hilarious? 213 00:12:49,352 --> 00:12:51,270 I just think it's kind of funny, 214 00:12:51,271 --> 00:12:53,355 you wearing that to a feminist retreat, 215 00:12:53,356 --> 00:12:55,774 because your shirt is literally telling women, 216 00:12:55,775 --> 00:12:57,151 get out of your face. 217 00:12:57,152 --> 00:12:58,861 Whatever. I don't even get feminism. 218 00:12:58,862 --> 00:13:01,989 I get called a girly girl like it's a bad thing? 219 00:13:01,990 --> 00:13:04,116 So I'm double the amount of girl, 220 00:13:04,117 --> 00:13:05,951 and somehow that's not feminist. 221 00:13:05,952 --> 00:13:07,953 It's ridiculous. 222 00:13:07,954 --> 00:13:09,288 Hello. 223 00:13:09,289 --> 00:13:12,124 Thank you so much. 224 00:13:12,125 --> 00:13:13,876 This looks delicious. 225 00:13:13,877 --> 00:13:15,462 Thanks, dude. 226 00:13:16,713 --> 00:13:17,797 So you play basketball? 227 00:13:19,090 --> 00:13:20,966 Yeah, I used to. 228 00:13:20,967 --> 00:13:24,178 I got cut from the team for unsportsmanlike conduct. 229 00:13:24,179 --> 00:13:26,138 This bitch from another team kept fouling me, 230 00:13:26,139 --> 00:13:28,182 so I pissed in my hand and I threw it at her. 231 00:13:28,183 --> 00:13:31,018 - Were you good? - Hell yeah. 232 00:13:31,019 --> 00:13:33,103 I was a beast on the court. 233 00:13:33,104 --> 00:13:35,356 People who waste their talent get on my nerves. 234 00:13:35,357 --> 00:13:37,942 If I missed even one meet based off of some foolishness on my part, 235 00:13:37,943 --> 00:13:39,277 I'd never forgive myself. 236 00:13:40,862 --> 00:13:42,404 - What are you doing? - I have an app 237 00:13:42,405 --> 00:13:43,698 that turns my phone into a digital scale. 238 00:13:49,037 --> 00:13:51,914 Also, I have two pugs, Coco and Jax. 239 00:13:51,915 --> 00:13:53,249 They're from the same litter, 240 00:13:53,250 --> 00:13:54,833 but they're, like, so different. 241 00:13:54,834 --> 00:13:56,627 So what kind of music do you listen to? 242 00:13:56,628 --> 00:13:59,380 I don't really know. Everything, I guess. 243 00:13:59,381 --> 00:14:00,798 You know what's funny? 244 00:14:00,799 --> 00:14:02,675 I always say I'm into rap and hip-hop, 245 00:14:02,676 --> 00:14:04,969 but the other day, I was going through my Spotify history, 246 00:14:04,970 --> 00:14:08,138 and guess who I listen to most. 247 00:14:08,139 --> 00:14:09,640 P!nk. 248 00:14:09,641 --> 00:14:11,809 It was like a wake-up call for me. 249 00:14:11,810 --> 00:14:14,395 Honestly, we should all be checking our play count. 250 00:14:14,396 --> 00:14:15,854 You can't hide from your play count, 251 00:14:15,855 --> 00:14:18,983 and my play count says I like P!nk. 252 00:14:22,195 --> 00:14:25,823 - Who do you keep looking at? - My sister. 253 00:14:25,824 --> 00:14:28,158 So have you been listening to me at all? 254 00:14:28,159 --> 00:14:30,869 You're from San Francisco, you hate being homeschooled, 255 00:14:30,870 --> 00:14:32,705 you work at your family's restaurant, 256 00:14:32,706 --> 00:14:34,206 you collect erasers, 257 00:14:34,207 --> 00:14:36,500 you have two pugs named Coco and Jax, 258 00:14:36,501 --> 00:14:38,794 and you're existentially prepared to admit 259 00:14:38,795 --> 00:14:40,088 that you like P!nk. 260 00:14:42,257 --> 00:14:45,384 No, boys aren't really into me. 261 00:14:45,385 --> 00:14:47,011 At least none that you know of. 262 00:14:47,012 --> 00:14:49,638 I've got a pretty good lay of the land. 263 00:14:49,639 --> 00:14:52,057 It's just none, period. 264 00:14:52,058 --> 00:14:54,393 Well, all you need is one good one. 265 00:14:54,394 --> 00:14:57,062 Andrew, he is such a keeper. 266 00:14:57,063 --> 00:14:59,732 For our anniversary, he bought me an actual star. 267 00:14:59,733 --> 00:15:02,359 Like, in the sky. And he named it after me. 268 00:15:02,360 --> 00:15:05,488 Shelby, sorry, I...I think you have cake in your teeth. 269 00:15:08,408 --> 00:15:09,783 Would you excuse me? 270 00:15:09,784 --> 00:15:11,660 Thanks. 271 00:15:39,689 --> 00:15:42,024 It's hard to talk about this part. 272 00:15:42,025 --> 00:15:45,861 Of course. That must have been terrifying. 273 00:15:45,862 --> 00:15:47,197 No. 274 00:15:50,408 --> 00:15:52,160 It was embarrassing. 275 00:15:54,537 --> 00:15:56,622 The thought did cross my mind, you know, 276 00:15:56,623 --> 00:15:59,876 this could be my final moment alive. 277 00:16:02,462 --> 00:16:04,798 How do you think I spent it? 278 00:16:05,799 --> 00:16:08,176 I didn't reach out for comfort. 279 00:16:10,261 --> 00:16:13,138 I didn't cry. 280 00:16:13,139 --> 00:16:15,974 I didn't shut everything out. 281 00:16:15,975 --> 00:16:21,063 I didn't, like, carpe diem or anything. 282 00:16:21,064 --> 00:16:23,941 I didn't indulge. 283 00:16:23,942 --> 00:16:27,069 I took no measures to protect myself. 284 00:16:27,070 --> 00:16:30,407 I didn't pray for my mortal soul. 285 00:16:32,283 --> 00:16:35,077 Here's what I did: 286 00:16:35,078 --> 00:16:39,624 I sat in my fucking love puddle... 287 00:16:41,751 --> 00:16:43,085 ...and thought about a guy. 288 00:16:43,086 --> 00:16:44,586 The world knows him 289 00:16:44,587 --> 00:16:46,797 as the 2013 National Book Award winner, 290 00:16:46,798 --> 00:16:49,299 but to me, he'll only ever be the little shit 291 00:16:49,300 --> 00:16:52,052 who sat at the back of my class making paper clip chains 292 00:16:52,053 --> 00:16:54,555 and ignoring every word I said. 293 00:16:54,556 --> 00:16:58,308 - - Please welcome Jeffrey Galanis. 294 00:17:04,107 --> 00:17:05,482 I should say, in hindsight 295 00:17:05,483 --> 00:17:07,484 that the... the paper clip chains 296 00:17:07,485 --> 00:17:09,528 that she's referring to probably had more artistic merit 297 00:17:09,529 --> 00:17:12,406 than, anything else I was turning in in her class. 298 00:17:13,908 --> 00:17:15,409 Anyway, I thought that, 299 00:17:15,410 --> 00:17:17,579 we would start with a reading. 300 00:17:18,496 --> 00:17:21,749 "Carrie's wish was simple: 301 00:17:21,750 --> 00:17:25,461 for something to finally happen to her, 302 00:17:25,462 --> 00:17:27,337 something that would add color 303 00:17:27,338 --> 00:17:30,507 to the bland desert of her life. 304 00:17:30,508 --> 00:17:31,592 And that's what it was." 305 00:17:31,593 --> 00:17:33,218 Hey, Ian. 306 00:17:33,219 --> 00:17:35,262 I'm supposed to take Jeff back to his hotel after, 307 00:17:35,263 --> 00:17:37,598 but I am up to my goddamn eyeballs in AP prep. 308 00:17:37,599 --> 00:17:38,891 Can you give him a lift? 309 00:17:38,892 --> 00:17:40,476 Wait, like, Jeffrey, Jeff? 310 00:17:40,477 --> 00:17:41,810 Yeah, yeah, yeah. 311 00:17:41,811 --> 00:17:43,145 I would, but my brother... 312 00:17:43,146 --> 00:17:44,480 I'll do it. 313 00:17:44,481 --> 00:17:48,108 God, thanks. You're a lifesaver. 314 00:18:03,208 --> 00:18:04,751 ...um... 315 00:18:07,712 --> 00:18:09,046 If you were bleeding internally, 316 00:18:09,047 --> 00:18:10,464 your heart rate would be, like, shot. 317 00:18:10,465 --> 00:18:12,716 I think you're just a little roughed up. 318 00:18:29,484 --> 00:18:33,529 Hey, hey, look. 319 00:18:33,530 --> 00:18:35,405 We're gonna be okay. 320 00:18:35,406 --> 00:18:37,533 We're gonna be okay. 321 00:18:37,534 --> 00:18:39,451 All right, help me out with the timeline here. 322 00:18:39,452 --> 00:18:42,746 Um, about how long had you been out there at that point? 323 00:18:42,747 --> 00:18:45,624 - I don't know. - Two, three hours? 324 00:18:45,625 --> 00:18:47,876 I'm just trying to pin down when the crash occurred. 325 00:18:47,877 --> 00:18:49,420 I honestly don't know. 326 00:18:51,506 --> 00:18:53,715 From the crash till when you spotted the shoreline, 327 00:18:53,716 --> 00:18:56,009 you can't give me a ballpark estimate? 328 00:18:56,010 --> 00:18:59,304 Look, I don't mean to be difficult. 329 00:18:59,305 --> 00:19:03,350 Just, that part at the beginning... 330 00:19:03,351 --> 00:19:05,353 it's all a blur. 331 00:19:06,312 --> 00:19:08,730 And not just for me. 332 00:19:08,731 --> 00:19:11,358 After the plane went down, 333 00:19:11,359 --> 00:19:13,694 we all had this blank in our memories. 334 00:19:15,738 --> 00:19:18,323 Even the ones that came to on the island. 335 00:19:18,324 --> 00:19:20,284 Martha! 336 00:19:20,285 --> 00:19:22,160 Marty! 337 00:19:37,468 --> 00:19:39,762 Marty! 338 00:19:40,889 --> 00:19:42,347 You gotta get up and move around, all right? 339 00:19:42,348 --> 00:19:43,974 You're in shock. 340 00:19:43,975 --> 00:19:46,894 They made me come. I'm not supposed to be here. 341 00:19:46,895 --> 00:19:49,897 Who, like, your parents? 342 00:19:49,898 --> 00:19:51,899 Well, if it makes you feel any better, 343 00:19:51,900 --> 00:19:54,902 they're probably feeling pretty shitty right now. 344 00:19:54,903 --> 00:19:56,988 Like, crushing guilt. 345 00:19:58,281 --> 00:20:00,115 Hey, you win. 346 00:20:00,116 --> 00:20:01,992 Well, kind of. Not really. 347 00:20:07,624 --> 00:20:10,667 You got a little bit of... 348 00:20:15,757 --> 00:20:16,965 Rachel. 349 00:20:16,966 --> 00:20:19,636 Are you okay? 350 00:20:21,220 --> 00:20:23,305 Is this helping? 351 00:20:23,306 --> 00:20:26,351 Because if it is, I...I won't stop you. 352 00:20:33,524 --> 00:20:35,192 You think I'm doing this shit on purpose? 353 00:20:35,193 --> 00:20:37,861 - No. - Because it could be motion sickness. 354 00:20:37,862 --> 00:20:40,447 Or the fact that we just woke up in a fucking nightmare, right, Nora? 355 00:20:40,448 --> 00:20:42,824 - I was just asking, Rachel. - No, you weren't. 356 00:20:42,825 --> 00:20:44,409 You were treating me like a child like you always do. 357 00:20:44,410 --> 00:20:46,161 I mean, that's why we're here, right? 358 00:20:46,162 --> 00:20:48,246 - That's not true. That's not true. - Yes, it is! 359 00:20:48,247 --> 00:20:51,083 You got it in your head that you need to protect me, and now we're here! 360 00:20:51,084 --> 00:20:52,417 When you ran your mouth off to Mom and Dad, 361 00:20:52,418 --> 00:20:54,836 what did you tell them, Nora? 362 00:20:54,837 --> 00:20:56,213 Nora, what did you say? 363 00:20:56,214 --> 00:20:57,297 Just that I was worried about you 364 00:20:57,298 --> 00:20:58,632 and maybe you needed a break. 365 00:20:58,633 --> 00:21:01,468 Great! Great fucking break, right? 366 00:21:08,726 --> 00:21:10,310 Motherfucker! 367 00:21:10,311 --> 00:21:13,355 - God. - Shelby! 368 00:21:14,816 --> 00:21:16,942 Shelby! 369 00:21:27,328 --> 00:21:29,454 My... My ankle. 370 00:21:32,417 --> 00:21:34,876 It's bad. It's bad, isn't it? 371 00:21:34,877 --> 00:21:36,378 No. 372 00:21:36,379 --> 00:21:38,797 It just needs a little TLC, okay? 373 00:21:41,801 --> 00:21:45,804 Sometimes you collide with a person 374 00:21:45,805 --> 00:21:47,514 and you get this feeling 375 00:21:47,515 --> 00:21:49,224 that they might become important to you. 376 00:21:49,225 --> 00:21:52,144 Maybe it's from a look 377 00:21:52,145 --> 00:21:54,146 or an act of kindness. 378 00:21:57,608 --> 00:22:00,527 Or maybe you just like the way your world feels 379 00:22:00,528 --> 00:22:02,070 when they're in it. 380 00:22:04,657 --> 00:22:07,576 I'm really sorry, by the way, if, this is way out of your way. 381 00:22:07,577 --> 00:22:10,370 I would have called an Uber or a Lyft or whatever. 382 00:22:10,371 --> 00:22:12,080 I just, um... 383 00:22:12,081 --> 00:22:14,916 I am a person who has chosen 384 00:22:14,917 --> 00:22:16,836 not to own a smartphone. 385 00:22:17,837 --> 00:22:20,089 That's, like, a whole thing? 386 00:22:20,840 --> 00:22:23,008 Okay, a couple... a few years ago, I... 387 00:22:23,009 --> 00:22:25,385 I lost my iPhone, and so I had to revert to this old flip phone, 388 00:22:25,386 --> 00:22:28,805 and then, I don't know, I started to kind of 389 00:22:28,806 --> 00:22:30,849 like the...the Luddite image 390 00:22:30,850 --> 00:22:32,601 that I was projecting with it so much 391 00:22:32,602 --> 00:22:34,644 that I just kind of stuck with it, and, you know... 392 00:22:34,645 --> 00:22:39,066 yes, it is, admittedly, an affectation. 393 00:22:39,067 --> 00:22:40,068 Um... 394 00:22:44,739 --> 00:22:46,407 So do you want to listen to music? 395 00:22:47,700 --> 00:22:49,451 Yeah, you... 396 00:22:49,452 --> 00:22:52,412 There's an aux cord in the... in the glove compartment. 397 00:22:52,413 --> 00:22:53,872 Shit, CDs. 398 00:22:53,873 --> 00:22:55,457 God, don't. 399 00:22:55,458 --> 00:22:58,001 Those are really old. I... 400 00:22:58,002 --> 00:23:00,837 There's no reflection of who I am. 401 00:23:00,838 --> 00:23:03,965 No, no, it's no... no judgment from me, trust me. 402 00:23:03,966 --> 00:23:07,637 And I'm dying to know what's on Awesome Summer Mix. 403 00:23:08,596 --> 00:23:10,972 I didn't name that. 404 00:23:10,973 --> 00:23:14,017 And P!nk. My God, I love P!nk. 405 00:23:14,018 --> 00:23:16,269 Like, I...I feel like she's got, like, 406 00:23:16,270 --> 00:23:19,941 this amazing anarchic quality to her. 407 00:23:21,567 --> 00:23:22,902 Yeah, she's kind of eternal. 408 00:23:26,864 --> 00:23:29,158 Your hotel's just right up here. 409 00:23:32,120 --> 00:23:33,245 Man, that was fast. 410 00:23:38,334 --> 00:23:41,461 Hey, I don't know if you're hungry, but, um... 411 00:23:41,462 --> 00:23:45,632 if you haven't eaten, we could get some food. 412 00:23:56,727 --> 00:23:59,354 Help! Hey! 413 00:23:59,355 --> 00:24:02,274 I see you! We see you! 414 00:24:02,275 --> 00:24:04,819 Hey! Hey! 415 00:24:06,320 --> 00:24:07,822 Hey! 416 00:24:08,739 --> 00:24:09,991 I got her. 417 00:24:11,826 --> 00:24:15,412 Is there anybody else out there? 418 00:24:15,413 --> 00:24:18,039 - Think, did you see anybody? - I didn't. 419 00:24:18,040 --> 00:24:20,834 - I didn't see anybody. - Toni! 420 00:24:25,298 --> 00:24:26,965 Martha! 421 00:24:29,844 --> 00:24:31,845 Toni! 422 00:24:36,601 --> 00:24:38,226 - That's the last time you ghost on me. - I'm okay. 423 00:24:38,227 --> 00:24:40,353 I'm fine, seriously. 424 00:24:40,354 --> 00:24:44,649 Shelby's been... Shelby's been amazing. 425 00:24:44,650 --> 00:24:46,818 What the fuck are you wearing? 426 00:24:46,819 --> 00:24:49,070 She's not breathing! 427 00:24:49,071 --> 00:24:50,447 She's not breathing. Those compressions are way too fast. 428 00:24:50,448 --> 00:24:52,157 You're pumping, like, double time. 429 00:24:52,158 --> 00:24:53,617 There's no such thing as too fast, only too slow. 430 00:24:53,618 --> 00:24:55,285 Actually, compressions can be too fast 431 00:24:55,286 --> 00:24:57,245 - if they're not deep enough. - Dude, slow down! 432 00:24:57,246 --> 00:24:59,164 Ease up, Dottie. You're going way too fast. 433 00:24:59,165 --> 00:25:00,749 Okay, hell, if you're all such experts, 434 00:25:00,750 --> 00:25:02,125 somebody else tap in. 435 00:25:02,126 --> 00:25:03,501 Okay, yeah, you just have to go... 436 00:25:03,502 --> 00:25:05,837 Who knows CPR? 437 00:25:08,966 --> 00:25:11,801 So it turned out, everyone had a working knowledge 438 00:25:11,802 --> 00:25:14,180 of CPR? 439 00:25:16,557 --> 00:25:18,600 It's weird, isn't it? 440 00:25:18,601 --> 00:25:20,853 That every single one of us knew how? 441 00:25:22,855 --> 00:25:25,148 Is that important for your, um... 442 00:25:25,149 --> 00:25:26,900 for your purposes or whatever? 443 00:25:26,901 --> 00:25:28,860 Honestly, it could be. 444 00:25:28,861 --> 00:25:30,862 Anything could be relevant at this point. 445 00:25:30,863 --> 00:25:32,322 Which is why it's crucial 446 00:25:32,323 --> 00:25:34,407 that you give us this full-picture account. 447 00:25:34,408 --> 00:25:37,035 Of the flight, of the others, 448 00:25:37,036 --> 00:25:40,372 and what you were doing on that plane to begin with. 449 00:25:52,510 --> 00:25:54,636 Well, I feel like I should be asking you about your book. 450 00:25:54,637 --> 00:25:58,265 - No. - I have to write an essay on it, so... 451 00:25:58,266 --> 00:26:00,141 I'd love your help. 452 00:26:00,142 --> 00:26:01,518 Okay. 453 00:26:01,519 --> 00:26:04,813 Let me first ask you, 454 00:26:04,814 --> 00:26:06,190 what...what'd you think of it? 455 00:26:07,358 --> 00:26:08,943 I loved it. 456 00:26:10,569 --> 00:26:11,946 I really did. 457 00:26:13,489 --> 00:26:15,782 But at the end, 458 00:26:15,783 --> 00:26:17,367 like, it got a little weird. 459 00:26:17,368 --> 00:26:19,536 Like, it got a little sentimental, I think. 460 00:26:19,537 --> 00:26:21,121 - I'm really sorry. - Yeah, sure. 461 00:26:21,122 --> 00:26:22,330 - No, that's... - I didn't mean to say that. 462 00:26:22,331 --> 00:26:25,583 Yeah, no, it's... That's okay. 463 00:26:25,584 --> 00:26:26,711 Um... 464 00:26:28,337 --> 00:26:30,672 ...the truth is, like, sometimes, 465 00:26:30,673 --> 00:26:32,966 at a certain point, it feels like it's, like, 466 00:26:32,967 --> 00:26:35,802 impossible to get honest feedback out of anybody, 467 00:26:35,803 --> 00:26:38,096 so, I appreciate it; thank you. 468 00:26:38,097 --> 00:26:39,973 It's very kind of you. 469 00:26:39,974 --> 00:26:43,059 This is fun. We should do this again sometime. 470 00:26:43,060 --> 00:26:46,438 If that's not, like, totally unwelcome or whatever. 471 00:26:54,238 --> 00:26:56,698 Can you even enter contacts into this thing, 472 00:26:56,699 --> 00:26:59,075 or is it just for selling drugs? 473 00:26:59,076 --> 00:27:01,202 - You're being funny! - Yeah, I don't... 474 00:27:01,203 --> 00:27:03,831 - Sorry, it was a joke! - How do you even work this thing? 475 00:27:06,417 --> 00:27:08,836 I'm gonna let you behind the curtain a little bit. 476 00:27:12,840 --> 00:27:14,341 If a girl really likes someone, 477 00:27:14,342 --> 00:27:17,469 she won't put their name in her phone. 478 00:27:17,470 --> 00:27:20,847 Your crush is, like, sacred. 479 00:27:23,142 --> 00:27:25,018 You can't just file him in your contacts 480 00:27:25,019 --> 00:27:28,521 between your cousin and your chem lab partner. 481 00:27:28,522 --> 00:27:31,232 That would make him common. 482 00:27:31,233 --> 00:27:33,443 So you learn his number... 483 00:27:33,444 --> 00:27:36,905 ...every contour of every digit. 484 00:27:36,906 --> 00:27:39,657 You carve those little hieroglyphs on your heart. 485 00:27:44,538 --> 00:27:46,498 So you basically sleepwalk... 486 00:27:46,499 --> 00:27:48,208 ...through the rest of your life, 487 00:27:48,209 --> 00:27:51,754 waiting for dispatches from that magic number. 488 00:27:54,048 --> 00:27:56,508 And then there's the pivotal text. 489 00:27:58,052 --> 00:28:02,680 It will probably come around midnight, 490 00:28:02,681 --> 00:28:04,849 and it will change everything. 491 00:28:55,568 --> 00:28:57,528 - You're awake! - Yeah, hi. 492 00:28:59,530 --> 00:29:02,031 You're...you made it. 493 00:29:02,032 --> 00:29:03,825 Yeah, I did. 494 00:29:10,291 --> 00:29:12,625 I'm sorry. 495 00:29:12,626 --> 00:29:14,794 You have nothing to be sorry for. 496 00:29:14,795 --> 00:29:16,421 No, you don't understand. 497 00:29:16,422 --> 00:29:19,090 I'm so sorry. 498 00:29:27,099 --> 00:29:29,267 Hey, does anyone have a phone? 499 00:29:29,268 --> 00:29:30,435 Don't you think we would have said something if we did? 500 00:29:30,436 --> 00:29:31,395 I'm not even sure how many bars 501 00:29:31,396 --> 00:29:32,896 we'd get out here. 502 00:29:32,897 --> 00:29:34,522 I'm just trying to think of lifelines, all right? 503 00:29:34,523 --> 00:29:36,065 They're gonna find us, but we can't be stupid. 504 00:29:36,066 --> 00:29:38,151 We should make a big-ass help sign, 505 00:29:38,152 --> 00:29:40,361 like in that movie 28 Days Later... 506 00:29:40,362 --> 00:29:42,155 What do you think happened to the flight attendant guy? 507 00:29:42,156 --> 00:29:43,948 We should be looking through suitcases, finding phones. 508 00:29:43,949 --> 00:29:46,117 - We can't just... - Listen, listen, listen, y'all. 509 00:29:46,118 --> 00:29:47,577 It's the 21st century, okay? 510 00:29:47,578 --> 00:29:49,037 They will find us, but in the meantime, 511 00:29:49,038 --> 00:29:51,040 we gotta keep track of our resources. 512 00:29:53,042 --> 00:29:54,918 Eight Cokes. 513 00:29:54,919 --> 00:29:57,378 Right now, that's all we got to drink, just eight of these. 514 00:29:57,379 --> 00:29:59,339 Okay, but don't worry, 515 00:29:59,340 --> 00:30:01,508 'cause if God brought us to it, God will bring us through it. 516 00:30:01,509 --> 00:30:03,468 You know, the whole "Jesus saves" thing isn't, like, literal. 517 00:30:03,469 --> 00:30:05,845 He's not gonna jetpack down and pull us out of here. 518 00:30:05,846 --> 00:30:07,472 No, Toni. 519 00:30:07,473 --> 00:30:09,057 Okay, the Lord saves those who save themselves, 520 00:30:09,058 --> 00:30:11,893 which is why I'm gonna take a look in the woods, 521 00:30:11,894 --> 00:30:14,020 see if there's some fresh water. 522 00:30:14,021 --> 00:30:16,856 - Maybe you should come with. - Hard pass. 523 00:30:16,857 --> 00:30:19,359 Shelby, here. 524 00:30:19,360 --> 00:30:22,570 If you're really going, you gotta take these. 525 00:30:22,571 --> 00:30:24,198 You're so generous. 526 00:30:26,909 --> 00:30:29,160 You know what? Maybe I will go. 527 00:30:29,161 --> 00:30:30,537 Make sure Christ doesn't lead your ass 528 00:30:30,538 --> 00:30:32,247 into a fucking sinkhole. 529 00:30:32,248 --> 00:30:33,581 Guys. 530 00:30:33,582 --> 00:30:34,791 What the hell, Dot? 531 00:30:34,792 --> 00:30:36,125 I'm sorry. 532 00:30:36,126 --> 00:30:39,212 Look, I was saving her ass, okay? 533 00:30:39,213 --> 00:30:40,630 It got real wet. 534 00:30:40,631 --> 00:30:42,465 You honestly think sand will dry it out? 535 00:30:42,466 --> 00:30:44,551 I read an article on the Internet 536 00:30:44,552 --> 00:30:46,594 about alternatives to rice in a bag. 537 00:30:46,595 --> 00:30:47,680 Sand was mentioned. 538 00:30:50,599 --> 00:30:52,393 Yeah, well, good enough for me. 539 00:30:57,606 --> 00:30:59,190 Keep your ears peeled. 540 00:30:59,191 --> 00:31:01,442 You'll hear moving water before you see it. 541 00:31:01,443 --> 00:31:02,860 How come you know all this? 542 00:31:02,861 --> 00:31:04,612 This may surprise you, 543 00:31:04,613 --> 00:31:07,865 but I'm not just some delicate indoor princess, okay? 544 00:31:07,866 --> 00:31:10,827 I go hunting with my dad all the time. 545 00:31:10,828 --> 00:31:12,620 So you do one hard-core thing? 546 00:31:12,621 --> 00:31:14,914 That doesn't mean you're not mostly an indoor princess. 547 00:31:14,915 --> 00:31:17,166 How many pillows do you have on your bed? 548 00:31:17,167 --> 00:31:19,961 Bet you've got one of those mega beds with, like, 50 pillows. 549 00:31:19,962 --> 00:31:21,796 And your maid, Lupe, 550 00:31:21,797 --> 00:31:24,048 she's gotta keep taking them off and putting them back on 551 00:31:24,049 --> 00:31:26,759 and it's making her want to off herself, am I right? You know I'm right. 552 00:31:26,760 --> 00:31:29,178 Yeah, well, I've also shot down a ten-point buck, 553 00:31:29,179 --> 00:31:30,805 snapped his neck to finish the job, 554 00:31:30,806 --> 00:31:33,600 and butchered him in the field all by myself. 555 00:31:33,601 --> 00:31:36,728 God built us to contain multitudes, Toni. 556 00:31:36,729 --> 00:31:37,937 Now can you turn around? 557 00:31:37,938 --> 00:31:40,524 'Cause I have to pee. 558 00:31:43,652 --> 00:31:45,737 Plug your ears. 559 00:31:45,738 --> 00:31:47,990 Plug your ears, or I'll have to sing. 560 00:32:00,919 --> 00:32:02,379 You gotta be kidding me. 561 00:32:07,009 --> 00:32:09,385 It didn't happen consciously, 562 00:32:09,386 --> 00:32:13,181 but I was finally starting to notice the others. 563 00:32:13,182 --> 00:32:14,807 Like Martha, 564 00:32:14,808 --> 00:32:18,854 how every creature meant something to her. 565 00:32:19,855 --> 00:32:22,774 Or Nora, 566 00:32:22,775 --> 00:32:25,318 how she always knew when you were looking at her 567 00:32:25,319 --> 00:32:30,073 and how her smile could mean a million different things. 568 00:32:30,074 --> 00:32:32,533 The veil of obsession was lifting. 569 00:32:32,534 --> 00:32:34,035 The world I had narrowed down to one 570 00:32:34,036 --> 00:32:36,371 was starting to repopulate. 571 00:32:36,372 --> 00:32:39,667 "There's no better place to grow into yourself." 572 00:32:40,876 --> 00:32:43,503 What does "grow into yourself" even mean? 573 00:32:43,504 --> 00:32:46,798 It sounds gross, like an ingrown hair. 574 00:32:49,760 --> 00:32:51,803 I didn't think it'd be so chilly. 575 00:32:51,804 --> 00:32:54,555 I know. 576 00:32:54,556 --> 00:32:57,558 I'm not sure we're anywhere near Hawaii. 577 00:32:57,559 --> 00:32:59,895 Hey, this is yours, right? 578 00:33:01,855 --> 00:33:05,817 But just like that, the veil fell again. 579 00:33:05,818 --> 00:33:08,653 And he was all there was. 580 00:33:24,086 --> 00:33:25,838 - Hi. - Hi. 581 00:33:26,964 --> 00:33:29,133 - Hi. - Hi. 582 00:33:32,678 --> 00:33:37,014 - Can I come in? - Yep, yeah. 583 00:33:37,015 --> 00:33:39,600 This is so nice. 584 00:33:39,601 --> 00:33:40,977 Yeah, it's...it's not bad. 585 00:33:40,978 --> 00:33:42,645 You have three outlets over there. 586 00:33:42,646 --> 00:33:44,230 Yeah, I asked for one more, and they... 587 00:33:44,231 --> 00:33:45,940 ...they said no. 588 00:33:45,941 --> 00:33:47,692 Hey. 589 00:33:47,693 --> 00:33:49,319 Happy belated birthday. 590 00:33:50,654 --> 00:33:52,156 Thank you. 591 00:34:03,041 --> 00:34:05,793 Every girl has a vision for how she wants to lose it. 592 00:34:18,015 --> 00:34:20,099 Will you sign one for me? 593 00:34:20,100 --> 00:34:22,226 Some dream about prom night. 594 00:34:22,227 --> 00:34:23,771 Come on. 595 00:34:25,773 --> 00:34:28,608 I'll do you one better. 596 00:34:28,609 --> 00:34:30,526 I'll annotate it for you. 597 00:34:30,527 --> 00:34:32,236 With a nice enough boyfriend, 598 00:34:32,237 --> 00:34:35,324 maybe a bed covered in rose petals. 599 00:34:39,203 --> 00:34:43,080 "Dear Leah." 600 00:34:43,081 --> 00:34:45,459 I'm not sure what I imagined before him. 601 00:34:47,211 --> 00:34:50,129 I guess I thought it would be just like the rest of my life, 602 00:34:50,130 --> 00:34:54,383 just sort of... 603 00:34:54,384 --> 00:34:56,136 unremarkable. 604 00:34:57,805 --> 00:34:59,597 Maybe at a party 605 00:34:59,598 --> 00:35:03,434 or on an old couch in somebody's damp basement, 606 00:35:03,435 --> 00:35:05,728 lots of condom-fumbling 607 00:35:05,729 --> 00:35:07,438 and apologies. 608 00:35:10,150 --> 00:35:12,860 If you had told me it would happen the way it did... 609 00:35:17,699 --> 00:35:21,369 ...I would've told you to get the fuck out. 610 00:35:28,293 --> 00:35:31,796 I like watching you do ordinary things. 611 00:35:31,797 --> 00:35:33,631 Makes you seem more real. 612 00:35:43,225 --> 00:35:45,142 You are, right? 613 00:35:45,143 --> 00:35:46,812 Like, not you. 614 00:35:48,647 --> 00:35:52,567 Like, this is... 615 00:35:52,568 --> 00:35:55,236 real? 616 00:35:57,698 --> 00:35:59,157 Are you... 617 00:36:00,826 --> 00:36:03,786 You're asking about my feelings? 618 00:36:03,787 --> 00:36:06,163 Or... 619 00:36:10,878 --> 00:36:11,920 Yes. 620 00:36:14,423 --> 00:36:17,217 My God, yes. 621 00:36:24,349 --> 00:36:26,475 That makes 16. 622 00:36:26,476 --> 00:36:28,769 Why do you think we're only finding Diets? 623 00:36:28,770 --> 00:36:30,980 Anything with real sugar would sink, 624 00:36:30,981 --> 00:36:33,399 sugar being heavier than water. 625 00:36:33,400 --> 00:36:36,485 How long can the nine of us survive on 16 Cokes? 626 00:36:36,486 --> 00:36:40,239 Depends on the weather, how hot it gets. 627 00:36:40,240 --> 00:36:42,034 A week and a half, maybe. 628 00:36:44,953 --> 00:36:47,788 - You're smart? - I just read a lot. 629 00:36:47,789 --> 00:36:49,540 Books, man. Can't get into them. 630 00:36:49,541 --> 00:36:52,460 Try having an elite athlete as your sibling. 631 00:36:52,461 --> 00:36:53,961 You do a lot of sitting. 632 00:36:53,962 --> 00:36:56,547 On planes, in gyms, in the stands. 633 00:36:56,548 --> 00:36:58,257 Reading will happen. 634 00:36:58,258 --> 00:37:01,302 But, like, your phone's right there. 635 00:37:01,303 --> 00:37:04,305 And TV? TV's so good. 636 00:37:04,306 --> 00:37:06,849 You know what? They said, like, graphic novels would be, like, 637 00:37:06,850 --> 00:37:08,809 the gateway drug to books, 638 00:37:08,810 --> 00:37:10,853 and, like, I tried them. 639 00:37:10,854 --> 00:37:13,231 Apart from the pictures, they were pretty shit. 640 00:37:14,942 --> 00:37:16,525 Shit! 641 00:37:16,526 --> 00:37:18,904 I stubbed my fucking toe! 642 00:37:26,995 --> 00:37:31,916 Yeah, of course it's hers that would show up. 643 00:37:35,170 --> 00:37:36,337 It was heavy as shit. 644 00:37:56,984 --> 00:37:59,318 I bet we'll get rich once they find us. 645 00:37:59,319 --> 00:38:00,945 Suing for damages or whatever. 646 00:38:00,946 --> 00:38:02,738 Not that your ass needs the money. 647 00:38:02,739 --> 00:38:04,115 Shh. 648 00:38:04,116 --> 00:38:06,326 Keep listening for water. 649 00:38:08,412 --> 00:38:10,746 I'm so sick of looking at your fucking ponytail. 650 00:38:10,747 --> 00:38:12,415 I feel like it thinks it's better than me. 651 00:38:12,416 --> 00:38:15,042 Then how about you go in front? 652 00:38:15,043 --> 00:38:16,378 Fine. 653 00:38:19,715 --> 00:38:22,133 Lord, in Your mercy, 654 00:38:22,134 --> 00:38:24,510 grant us water so that we may drink. 655 00:38:24,511 --> 00:38:26,053 Lord, in Your mercy... 656 00:38:26,054 --> 00:38:27,638 Weren't you just telling me to shut up and listen? 657 00:38:27,639 --> 00:38:29,056 It's different. 658 00:38:29,057 --> 00:38:31,434 When you pray, God opens your senses. 659 00:38:31,435 --> 00:38:32,852 God's such a joke. 660 00:38:32,853 --> 00:38:33,936 Don't you know He's just a brainwashing tool 661 00:38:33,937 --> 00:38:35,479 designed to enslave the masses? 662 00:38:35,480 --> 00:38:38,357 Even if He were just a brainwashing tool, 663 00:38:38,358 --> 00:38:42,111 don't you ever think maybe your brain could use a good... 664 00:38:42,112 --> 00:38:43,487 scrub? 665 00:38:43,488 --> 00:38:44,573 Fuck off. 666 00:38:46,700 --> 00:38:48,576 Lord, in Your mercy, 667 00:38:48,577 --> 00:38:51,370 grant us water so that we may drink. 668 00:38:51,371 --> 00:38:53,706 Lord, in Your mercy, grant us... 669 00:38:55,333 --> 00:38:57,334 Fuck, fuck, Shelby! 670 00:39:02,591 --> 00:39:05,718 Shit, I swear, I didn't mean to... 671 00:39:05,719 --> 00:39:07,553 It's all right. 672 00:39:13,226 --> 00:39:16,687 - Hey... - Go ahead and go on back. 673 00:39:16,688 --> 00:39:19,273 I will too, but you should get a head start. 674 00:39:19,274 --> 00:39:21,525 I'd really rather walk alone. 675 00:39:31,036 --> 00:39:34,789 Look, we found more Diet Coke, of course, 676 00:39:34,790 --> 00:39:37,166 because, you know, sugar sinks, 677 00:39:37,167 --> 00:39:39,668 and then pants for you so that your legs aren't cold. 678 00:39:39,669 --> 00:39:41,253 Thank you. 679 00:39:41,254 --> 00:39:44,048 Not a bad haul but not great either. 680 00:39:44,049 --> 00:39:48,135 But wait, there's more! 681 00:39:49,971 --> 00:39:52,765 You get a mini, and you get a mini, and you get a mini. 682 00:39:52,766 --> 00:39:54,350 Hey, you guys partying without me? 683 00:39:54,351 --> 00:39:55,935 You're back. Find any water? 684 00:39:55,936 --> 00:39:57,144 No. 685 00:39:57,145 --> 00:39:59,855 Where's Shelby? 686 00:39:59,856 --> 00:40:02,191 I... - Shelby. 687 00:40:02,192 --> 00:40:03,610 Yeah, she's right there. 688 00:40:05,403 --> 00:40:07,613 - Your head. - It's fine. 689 00:40:07,614 --> 00:40:10,116 Ran smack into a tree, if you can believe. 690 00:40:10,117 --> 00:40:12,076 Yeah. 691 00:40:12,077 --> 00:40:13,953 Very silly of me. 692 00:40:13,954 --> 00:40:15,371 Hey! 693 00:40:15,372 --> 00:40:17,248 Hey, the phone's working! 694 00:40:17,249 --> 00:40:20,042 It's working! My God. 695 00:40:20,043 --> 00:40:21,877 Listen, we have to be strategic. 696 00:40:21,878 --> 00:40:23,504 We only have one bar and almost zero battery life left. 697 00:40:23,505 --> 00:40:25,047 Every second counts. 698 00:40:25,048 --> 00:40:27,424 May I just say, I am ready to make the call, okay? 699 00:40:27,425 --> 00:40:29,051 My aunt is a 911 operator, and I... 700 00:40:29,052 --> 00:40:30,719 No, 911 is out. It doesn't work in every country, 701 00:40:30,720 --> 00:40:32,429 and we don't even know where we are, 702 00:40:32,430 --> 00:40:34,807 so if we're closer to, like, Japan, 911 is useless. 703 00:40:34,808 --> 00:40:36,517 Japan's emergency number is 119. 704 00:40:36,518 --> 00:40:39,395 Look, we only have to get in contact with one person, 705 00:40:39,396 --> 00:40:41,147 so I want you all to have someone in mind, 706 00:40:41,148 --> 00:40:42,523 make sure you know their number, 707 00:40:42,524 --> 00:40:44,108 and make sure they love you enough 708 00:40:44,109 --> 00:40:46,152 that they're waiting by the phone right now. 709 00:40:46,153 --> 00:40:48,195 Okay? 710 00:40:48,196 --> 00:40:52,032 Of course, there's only one number I knew by heart. 711 00:40:59,583 --> 00:41:01,542 Hey. 712 00:41:01,543 --> 00:41:04,004 I had to tell my parents you were an Uber. 713 00:41:06,006 --> 00:41:07,756 What are you doing here? 714 00:41:07,757 --> 00:41:11,010 I thought the San Jose reading didn't end un... 715 00:41:11,011 --> 00:41:12,428 Are you okay? 716 00:41:12,429 --> 00:41:14,514 September 5th. 717 00:41:18,894 --> 00:41:20,936 September 5th is your... 718 00:41:20,937 --> 00:41:23,272 is your birthday, 719 00:41:23,273 --> 00:41:25,859 when you turn 17... 720 00:41:28,695 --> 00:41:30,906 - How did... - Fuck! 721 00:41:32,741 --> 00:41:34,659 Okay, somebody... 722 00:41:36,953 --> 00:41:40,789 ...somebody sent me a copy of your birth certificate 723 00:41:40,790 --> 00:41:42,333 via certified mail, 724 00:41:42,334 --> 00:41:44,001 and that means that somebody knows. 725 00:41:44,002 --> 00:41:45,544 - Wait, what? - Or somebody's watching, or... 726 00:41:45,545 --> 00:41:47,129 and that's, like, some other level of... 727 00:41:47,130 --> 00:41:48,714 You gotta...you have to get out of the car. 728 00:41:48,715 --> 00:41:50,299 Just give me a second. Just let me... 729 00:41:50,300 --> 00:41:52,301 Just get out of the car. Leah, you have to... 730 00:41:52,302 --> 00:41:54,888 - Just let me explain. - Leah, you gotta get out of the car. 731 00:42:03,271 --> 00:42:04,772 You lied to me. 732 00:42:04,773 --> 00:42:07,816 You're a child, and you lied to me. 733 00:42:27,337 --> 00:42:29,129 You're not calling Mom and Dad? 734 00:42:29,130 --> 00:42:31,299 They're in Morocco. They probably don't even know yet. 735 00:42:33,051 --> 00:42:34,677 I'm calling Coach. 736 00:42:34,678 --> 00:42:36,595 - No, not...not her. - Nora, give me the phone! 737 00:42:36,596 --> 00:42:38,764 - I'm calling Dad's cell. - Stop, they're not gonna answer. 738 00:42:38,765 --> 00:42:40,474 - They're out of the country, Nora! - You just can't call Coach! 739 00:42:40,475 --> 00:42:41,850 - Give me the phone! Nor... - You can't call her! 740 00:42:45,105 --> 00:42:46,772 Great job. 741 00:42:46,773 --> 00:42:48,315 - Did...did you dial it right? - Of course I did! 742 00:42:48,316 --> 00:42:50,359 Do you mind? If I know Dave and JoBeth Goodkind, 743 00:42:50,360 --> 00:42:53,612 they're pacing holes in the carpet right now. 744 00:42:59,244 --> 00:43:00,703 Well, that's... that's just strange. 745 00:43:00,704 --> 00:43:02,955 Let me real quick try my boyfriend. 746 00:43:02,956 --> 00:43:05,499 Don't bother. Andrew's probably dick deep in Christa Findlay by now. 747 00:43:08,461 --> 00:43:10,212 Go, Marty. 748 00:43:18,138 --> 00:43:19,680 It didn't work. 749 00:43:19,681 --> 00:43:21,807 You wanna try? It's your phone. 750 00:43:21,808 --> 00:43:23,767 - No, I'm good. - Here. 751 00:43:23,768 --> 00:43:26,770 As much as I hate the idea of calling those assholes... 752 00:43:30,317 --> 00:43:31,775 Why didn't your mom pick up? 753 00:43:31,776 --> 00:43:33,194 Hey, are you all right? 754 00:43:34,487 --> 00:43:37,072 I'm sorry. 755 00:43:47,834 --> 00:43:49,418 It's ringing. 756 00:44:02,307 --> 00:44:03,891 Guys! 757 00:44:03,892 --> 00:44:06,436 Fuck! It's dead. 758 00:44:07,687 --> 00:44:09,563 She's... She's dead. 759 00:44:49,562 --> 00:44:51,897 I don't get why we have to bury her. 760 00:44:51,898 --> 00:44:53,399 They're gonna come for us soon. 761 00:44:53,400 --> 00:44:54,441 Then we'll have to dig her right back up. 762 00:44:54,442 --> 00:44:57,569 It's only temporary. 763 00:44:57,570 --> 00:44:59,405 Just to keep the animals away. 764 00:45:04,494 --> 00:45:06,412 Shouldn't somebody say a few words? 765 00:45:06,413 --> 00:45:09,081 Sounds like you're volunteering. 766 00:45:09,082 --> 00:45:12,459 Well, I am an ordained youth minister. 767 00:45:17,215 --> 00:45:19,800 Lord, 768 00:45:19,801 --> 00:45:23,762 thank you for the gift of Jeanette. 769 00:45:23,763 --> 00:45:25,264 We didn't know her real well, 770 00:45:25,265 --> 00:45:29,101 but she had a really bright spirit, 771 00:45:29,102 --> 00:45:31,687 and because she was made in Your image, 772 00:45:31,688 --> 00:45:34,106 we can be sure that she was beautiful. 773 00:45:36,943 --> 00:45:40,362 - Amen. - Amen. 774 00:45:58,047 --> 00:46:01,008 I think she liked P!nk. 775 00:46:01,009 --> 00:46:03,052 Yeah, she did. 776 00:47:04,906 --> 00:47:07,866 I'm gonna swim out to the plane tomorrow. 777 00:47:07,867 --> 00:47:10,160 See if I can find anything. 778 00:47:10,161 --> 00:47:12,496 Might be a radio or callbox or something. 779 00:47:12,497 --> 00:47:14,123 I'll come with you. 780 00:47:19,045 --> 00:47:21,297 How's your stuff so dry? 781 00:47:22,715 --> 00:47:25,842 My parents bought me this... 782 00:47:25,843 --> 00:47:30,180 watertight $1,000 suitcase for this trip. 783 00:47:30,181 --> 00:47:31,891 They thought it would, like, sweeten the deal. 784 00:47:33,226 --> 00:47:34,394 Fucktards. 785 00:47:37,522 --> 00:47:38,523 Sorry. 786 00:47:40,817 --> 00:47:41,900 Thank you. 787 00:47:41,901 --> 00:47:43,194 Hey, let me get one. 788 00:47:46,155 --> 00:47:47,991 Thanks. 789 00:47:53,997 --> 00:47:55,665 This is my rock bottom. 790 00:47:56,833 --> 00:47:59,960 So... 791 00:47:59,961 --> 00:48:03,797 would it be crazy if I suggested a little... 792 00:48:03,798 --> 00:48:06,508 icebreaker? 793 00:48:06,509 --> 00:48:08,885 Never Have I Ever. 794 00:48:08,886 --> 00:48:13,140 Feels...right. 795 00:48:13,141 --> 00:48:15,517 All right. 796 00:48:15,518 --> 00:48:18,145 Only if you go first. 797 00:48:18,146 --> 00:48:20,480 None of those bullshit lightweight answers. 798 00:48:20,481 --> 00:48:22,983 - Give us the real. - Fine. 799 00:48:22,984 --> 00:48:26,737 Never have I ever had vaginal penetrative intercourse. 800 00:48:26,738 --> 00:48:28,530 So that's why your boyfriend's a cheat? 801 00:48:28,531 --> 00:48:30,908 He's not a cheat. 802 00:48:35,330 --> 00:48:37,581 Glad I'm not the only one. 803 00:48:37,582 --> 00:48:39,833 I would've felt so stupid. 804 00:48:39,834 --> 00:48:42,085 Get out of here. 805 00:48:42,086 --> 00:48:45,213 It takes guts to save yourself, you know that? 806 00:48:45,214 --> 00:48:47,299 All right. 807 00:48:47,300 --> 00:48:49,468 Never have I ever... 808 00:48:49,469 --> 00:48:51,262 had a threesome. 809 00:48:53,222 --> 00:48:55,433 With two guys, not two girls. 810 00:48:59,354 --> 00:49:00,521 On my period. 811 00:49:02,815 --> 00:49:05,818 I mean, I'm not a freak. 812 00:49:07,028 --> 00:49:10,030 All right, I got one. 813 00:49:10,031 --> 00:49:12,616 Never have I ever... 814 00:49:12,617 --> 00:49:14,910 thrown my own piss at someone. 815 00:49:17,163 --> 00:49:18,413 Drink up, Toni. 816 00:49:19,999 --> 00:49:21,625 With pride, motherfuckers. 817 00:49:37,350 --> 00:49:39,559 So... 818 00:49:39,560 --> 00:49:41,895 who'd you fuck? 819 00:49:41,896 --> 00:49:44,022 I mean, 820 00:49:44,023 --> 00:49:47,318 I always thought you were some weird art prude, but... 821 00:49:49,070 --> 00:49:51,571 ...I saw you drink. 822 00:49:51,572 --> 00:49:53,323 I know you've had sex. 823 00:49:53,324 --> 00:49:55,200 So who was it? 824 00:50:00,623 --> 00:50:03,125 - Him. - Damn. 825 00:50:03,126 --> 00:50:05,961 I had no idea you were such a bad bitch! 826 00:50:05,962 --> 00:50:07,254 Well, in your defense, 827 00:50:07,255 --> 00:50:09,172 we've never really talked before, so... 828 00:50:09,173 --> 00:50:11,174 True story. 829 00:50:13,636 --> 00:50:16,555 So was it hot? 830 00:50:16,556 --> 00:50:18,515 Yeah. 831 00:50:20,268 --> 00:50:23,770 Yeah, but maybe in, like, a burning building kind of way. 832 00:50:23,771 --> 00:50:26,690 Like, it's probably really good I got out. 833 00:50:26,691 --> 00:50:28,608 Shit. 834 00:50:28,609 --> 00:50:29,777 That's poetic. 835 00:50:30,903 --> 00:50:32,654 Well, at least your first-time guy's 836 00:50:32,655 --> 00:50:34,197 face is on the back of a book. 837 00:50:34,198 --> 00:50:36,742 My first time was with a fucking grocery bagger 838 00:50:36,743 --> 00:50:38,118 at Smart andamp; Final. 839 00:50:40,538 --> 00:50:43,039 God, I loved him. 840 00:50:43,040 --> 00:50:46,334 I loved him! 841 00:50:46,335 --> 00:50:48,003 You seem tired. 842 00:50:48,004 --> 00:50:50,589 We can be done for the day. 843 00:50:50,590 --> 00:50:52,924 The doctors really need you to rest. 844 00:50:55,553 --> 00:50:57,430 The burning building. 845 00:51:00,099 --> 00:51:01,266 I'm sorry? 846 00:51:01,267 --> 00:51:02,809 The burning building. 847 00:51:02,810 --> 00:51:05,688 I hadn't made it out. I wasn't even close. 848 00:51:08,149 --> 00:51:09,734 There's... 849 00:51:13,154 --> 00:51:16,698 ...there's something I... 850 00:51:16,699 --> 00:51:19,534 I haven't... 851 00:51:19,535 --> 00:51:22,829 told anyone this before. 852 00:51:22,830 --> 00:51:27,292 That night, in the dark, 853 00:51:27,293 --> 00:51:29,336 I was the only one who heard it. 854 00:51:38,346 --> 00:51:39,638 A ringing. 855 00:51:43,935 --> 00:51:46,561 Buried where no one had thought to look. 856 00:51:50,775 --> 00:51:53,109 I didn't know why she had kept it from us. 857 00:52:03,871 --> 00:52:06,998 I thought I had evolved, 858 00:52:06,999 --> 00:52:09,084 that the day had somehow made me stronger, 859 00:52:09,085 --> 00:52:11,545 just a little. 860 00:52:11,546 --> 00:52:13,296 Just enough. 861 00:52:15,758 --> 00:52:18,134 What a fucking delusion. 862 00:52:29,397 --> 00:52:30,898 Hello? 863 00:52:32,817 --> 00:52:34,484 Jeff. 864 00:52:34,485 --> 00:52:35,653 Leah? 865 00:52:37,572 --> 00:52:40,323 Are you calling me from an unknown number so that I'll pick up? 866 00:52:40,324 --> 00:52:41,992 Because if you are, that's really fucked up. 867 00:52:41,993 --> 00:52:44,619 That is really... that is really... 868 00:52:44,620 --> 00:52:47,622 You have to stop calling me. Don't text me. 869 00:52:47,623 --> 00:52:49,291 Do you understand that? 870 00:52:49,292 --> 00:52:52,502 I don't want to talk to you anymore. 871 00:52:52,503 --> 00:52:54,755 It's over. I'm sor... 872 00:52:59,927 --> 00:53:01,595 So you never told the others 873 00:53:01,596 --> 00:53:04,306 you made outside contact that night. 874 00:53:04,307 --> 00:53:06,017 What would I have said? 875 00:53:07,643 --> 00:53:10,478 That I was too strung out at the sound of his voice 876 00:53:10,479 --> 00:53:12,189 to send up an SOS? 877 00:53:15,735 --> 00:53:17,361 Did he... 878 00:53:19,238 --> 00:53:20,740 ...did he reach out? 879 00:53:22,825 --> 00:53:24,994 After the news broke, did he... 880 00:53:26,787 --> 00:53:29,080 ...did he call anyone 881 00:53:29,081 --> 00:53:30,457 to say he'd heard from me? 882 00:53:30,458 --> 00:53:32,792 The authorities fielded a lot of calls 883 00:53:32,793 --> 00:53:34,294 from a lot of worried parties. 884 00:53:34,295 --> 00:53:36,880 Did he care enough to do anything? 885 00:53:39,175 --> 00:53:41,176 Anything? Anything at all? 886 00:53:41,177 --> 00:53:42,552 Leah, how about you take a deep breath? 887 00:53:42,553 --> 00:53:43,845 Answer my question! 888 00:53:43,846 --> 00:53:47,599 It is the only one I have! It is... 889 00:53:47,600 --> 00:53:51,186 I just want to know if he tried for me. 890 00:54:03,199 --> 00:54:05,450 Pathetic, I know. 891 00:54:05,451 --> 00:54:07,494 I expected more from me too. 892 00:54:13,292 --> 00:54:15,126 Remember this when you see the others. 893 00:54:17,546 --> 00:54:19,464 When you try to figure us out. 894 00:54:23,010 --> 00:54:26,346 There is no "crazy." 895 00:54:26,347 --> 00:54:28,139 There's only "damage." 896 00:54:30,726 --> 00:54:32,477 And when you go looking for what caused it, 897 00:54:32,478 --> 00:54:35,772 don't waste your time on that island. 898 00:54:39,151 --> 00:54:43,321 It'll get you fucking nowhere. 899 00:54:53,040 --> 00:54:54,500 I've been trying to reach you. 900 00:55:00,297 --> 00:55:01,965 Which one? 901 00:55:01,966 --> 00:55:03,008 Jeanette. 902 00:55:04,969 --> 00:55:06,511 Can we even proceed? 903 00:55:06,512 --> 00:55:08,179 I mean, without her assistance on the ground... 904 00:55:08,180 --> 00:55:09,764 We have another operative. Have you located her? 905 00:55:09,765 --> 00:55:11,599 - Yeah. - She's still intact? 906 00:55:11,600 --> 00:55:13,351 - Yeah, she's fine. - Tell me exactly what happened. 907 00:55:13,352 --> 00:55:15,437 We're still piecing it together. 908 00:55:15,438 --> 00:55:17,230 It looks like there was some mishandling by the transition team. 909 00:55:17,231 --> 00:55:19,065 - And you cut her phone? - Of course. 910 00:55:19,066 --> 00:55:21,693 And you're absolutely sure she's dead. 911 00:55:21,694 --> 00:55:24,738 This was about three hours ago.